Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Breakthrough
Well today was a good emotional day. Yesterday, not so much. I spent some time with my therapist (who I hadn't seen since before Minna was born) and she was a tremendous help. I am coming to terms with the fact that I'm lucky. Not to have cancer, but to be young, and otherwise healthy and have cancer. I am strong, physically and mentally, and I have so much to fight for. Of course I'm devastated to lose my breasts but they have done a helluva job providing sustenance to my two wonderful daughters. I took good care of myself today and this evening I took a bath with Talia and Minna and it made me so happy. I realized that what I want, more than anything, is for these strong, smart, beautiful children to look back on this part of their life and see that I kicked cancer's ass! To see that I took this challenge head on and won the fight. I know I'll have more down days, and I'm still scared as hell about Friday, but I trust the doctors to take care of me and fix me so I will have a long, healthy and happy life ahead. That's all I ask for...
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Hi Jen, much love and good "vibes" in preparation for Friday. I'll give you a ring today to see how I can help. Isn't taking a bath with your kids one of life's greatest joys? :)
ReplyDeleteSo I finally have a chance to post to your blog. Your writing shows your strength and positive attitude. Although you are way too young to be on this path, I am certain you and Jason will climb this mountain and pass through this tunnel and arrive at a double rainbow just like the one we saw in Hawaii. Life will once again be sweet and happy. You are strong like a palm tree that stands tall but bends with the wind, showing great resilency. You will beat this and together this village of family and friends will lift you up and hold you close so that you will heal and move to a better place and we then will all be lifted by you. I love you to the moon and back. Love, Mom
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