It's really the first time I'm feeling like I am so over all of this. It's Day 6 and I am sick of feeling like shit. I'm definitely better than this weekend but the all over body aches, and neupogen injections (which hurt like a #$#%$%$ last night!) and the overall fatigue is just really getting old. I have been so proud of my attitude and happy with how I've been handling everything but last night and today I just feel done. I think it's partly to do with the fact that I only have 1 more cycle of AC to go and so I can see the first light at the end of the tunnel. And I also feel the cumulative effect of the fatigue. It feels more severe than last time and definitely since the time before that.
Not much else to say at the moment, I am still home, taking advantage of a quiet house and a lot of rest but I'm getting the itch to get out, and I don't quite have the energy to match the desire. I tried to nap this morning but no dice, I'll give it another go this afternoon. I'm hoping to be better tomorrow so I can go swimming...
Until then...
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Hang in there Jen. We are always thinking about you, and your resolve is an inspiration to many
ReplyDeleteYeah, what Matt said.
ReplyDeleteOn another note, Build A Bear has a special Breast Cancer Awareness bear (no pediatric cancer bear, but that's another story). It is fluffy and pink and I think Talia would like it when you're ready for an outing.
It's okay to give in to feeling like crap sometimes. It is HARD to keep up a good attitude and I definitely need breaks from being "strong" occasionally.
Sarah
Your attitude has been amazing and positive. Sarah and Matt are always positive too. You all inspire me to be a little more patient, a little more loving, and a lot more mindful. Vent all you want, you deserve to. Can I do anything to help?
ReplyDeletewhy don't you go camping in tilden part with 20 four year olds? that will cheer you up!
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