Today's infusion went well. Easy IV, my two favorite nurses really doted on me and fought over who got to take care of me. I will miss Cherie and Rose a lot, they have been so kind to me. The chemo ward was busy today, and I was surrounded by some pretty unhappy people. One with a persistent cough and one that just looked miserable. In the quad of chairs next door someone fell down and hit her head. It was a huge commotion. It felt like a very unsettling day.
I was happy knowing I only have two more visits, but I feel this deep sense of disappointment tonight. I suppose I am feeling like January 27 doesn't really mean everything is done. It just paves the way for the next round. I worked on my list of questions tonight for my appt tomorrow and I've been busy setting up appts with different docs about my reconstruction issues. So I don't get much of a respite from treatment, it's just a change in scenery I guess. And I feel bummed about that.
Talia was a pill tonight and I was exhausted from chemo so I was not as nice and patient with her as I would have liked. After 40 minutes of her crying in bed, she said "Mommy, let's never have that fight again!"
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Hang in there! Jan 27 may not be the end but it is a significant milestone and a huge accomplishment.
ReplyDeleteKeep your chin up Jen. You are almost done with chemo. That's huge. HUGE. The next part...you will get through that too. It's a process that sucks, but every day you put more of it behind you. You are strong and beautiful. Happy Friday. ~ Heidi
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