Things are moving along

I'm not posting very often. Partly because there isn't much to report but also I haven't felt like it. I guess I'm busy enjoying being out and about and restoring my health. But it's been a mixed bag of feelings recently. I'm not happy with how I look so I'm feeling insecure. Last weekend all my eyebrows and eyelashes fell out. I had no idea that could still happen, considering chemo ended over a month ago. But according to everyone in my support group it is normal. I've got a lot more hair on my head and today I noticed there is a ton of hair on my legs, which is new - so that is encouraging. I might have to start shaving again soon - what a privilege!

We weaned Minna of the bottle this past weekend so sleep has been a little difficult. She cries a lot more at bedtime and then wakes up at 5 instead of 6:30 starving. So we are exhausted. Despite the fatigue of parenthood I am finding that I am regaining strength each day. It's slow, no doubt about it, but still noticeable. The recovery from surgery is frustrating. I feel good - I'm not in any pain, I am totally mobile and driving and lifting things. But my doc says no rigorous activity for 8 weeks which stinks. I can hopefully start swimming next week. But I was hoping to start something else soon too. I guess it's a good way to force myself to slow down and really allow my body to heal from all the torture.

My main focus over the next couple of months is a whole bunch of soul searching. This whole journey has changed my life in more ways than I could have imagined. It's a lot to process and sort through but I have lots of support to help me get to a good place. It will be an uphill climb but I'm hoping the view from the top will be rewarding!