So the unveiling went a lot better than I expected it would. I honestly thought I would break down in tears at the sight of the new me. Yes it was scary and a little gruesome (if I am allowed to describe myself in this way) but I took a good long look and kept reassuring myself that it's a work in progress. And again, no matter what, this has saved my life and that makes it all worth it.
My mobility is really starting to come back. I am walking more, going out in public more, although crowds make me nervous because the idea of someone bumping into me makes me break out into a sweat. I'm still really sore and tender. I made breakfast for everyone this morning and it felt great to be more independent. I still can't lift Minna which is the most difficult limitation and the one that will take the longest to get past.
Tomorrow is the visit to the genetics counselor where I will learn more about the implications of being BRCA positive. What are my chances of ovarian cancer now? What does this mean for my girls? The biggest milestone this week is Thursday, my first oncology appointment. There I will learn what my regimen will be, the cocktail, the frequency, duration and expected side effects. I imagine that will be really intense and overwhelming and another big hurdle to fly over.
But fly I will....
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good for you!
ReplyDeleteJen,
ReplyDeleteYou never cease to amaze us with your candor and bravery as you approach each hurdle, . . . and most of all your positive attitude. One of my favorite quotes . . . “ You can’t control the wind, but you can adjust your sails”. I think you are “sailing” along beautifully. Thank you for allowing us to share your journey through your eyes.
Deb & Ken
Love this post the best as it shows you returning to your old self...I am proud of you. Love and kisses, Ali
ReplyDeleteKeep on posting - your strength is amazing, inspiring and uplifting. I love you. Mom
ReplyDeleteDear Jen,
ReplyDeleteYou are a true inspiration as you confront this incredible challenge with amazing grace and perspective. Your ability to share this experience is, I think, remarkable, and your eloquence in describing your own process is such a gift.
Much dear love to you and to Jason, Talia and Minna as you continue on this journey.
Ricki Shore & Barry Wofsy
Hi Jen,
ReplyDeleteYou are amazing! I appreciate reading your
daily updates. You are so articulate and clear in describing your experience! Thank you for giving everyone "a window" into your journey. Keep up the positive attitude.
Marlene